curiosity killed the kat

check it out. 4400.

So long ago, another life,
I can feel your heartbeat.

It's not a dream, remember us.
I can see it in your eyes.

We'll find our place in time,
A place in time beyond the sun.

We'll find our place in time,
A place in time to call our own.

I knew there could be something more.

Who's your first call?

To The Summer Country- I wish that's where I was headed. Instead I'm here.

How do I say the things I'm thinking/ writing?

It's gotta be a bad omen if both my fortune cookies had no fortune in them.


I'm anxious to go back.

Despite the biology test that I'm sure I failed today was a great day. I couldn't stop skipping and running around.

"I sit on my porch and think to myself this world is a beautiful place. I have been blessed, and I feel like I've found my way."

"And it seemed to me that the pain would last/ my chance for happiness had passed/ nothing waited round the bend./ I was sure I'd never find someone to heal the damage you had done./ My poor heart would never mend./ Wrong again./ Wrong Again."

CMT Top Twenty. <3

"Through the wind and the rain she stands hard as a stone in a world that she carries above but her dreams give her wings and she flys to a place where she's loved. Concrete Angel."

We don't always get what we want. Sometimes we lose what we want. And sometimes we just don't know.

I get home and I hoave one piece of mail..it's for one of those summer programmes at a college...Cambridge in this case.

For this particular one you chose two majors from a list of 72....one of the majors was Antarctia. I was so disappointed when I read the price.

Antarctica.


Stupid money.

She's lucky she took it to mom's room..I woulda knocked the shit out of her.

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Calming down, but I threw her keys...she just thinks shes the ruler of this fucking house and she isn't. She's just the youngest..fucking brat.

"While you were looking the other way
While you had your eyes closed
While you were licking your lips
’cause I was miserable
While you were selling your soul
While you were tearing a hole in me

I was taking control"

Garbage- Bleed Like Me
Released April 15th...must save money. Reminder.

Lunshea313 [6:12 PM]: how would you purpose to any girl not kris but just some girl oyu want to marry
M I A in WWII [6:12 PM]: hey im not a cliche person...i askedher out in a 2x2 foot hole in the wall

Two things:
I want to (really really want to) go see Phantom Of The Opera again. I keep thinking about it during that day and thinking "man, I wish I could see it again."

and the other one is I give up on like everything. It's too much energy for something/ things that aren't going to happen.

I just got the Phantom of the Opera soundtrack Special Edition, the barnes and noble guy saw the movie ten times already...which makes me jealous. I also got a promotional Valentine's day cd.
Mom doesn't know about The Phantom of the Opera soundtrack cuz she would get all pissy about spending that much money on a cd.

Must go do homework.

"If your life gets froggy, just hop."

what do you do when you want to talk to someone but your worried things will change or you'll be judged or do something stupid?

I took that quiz and got the loner with 88%.

I'm trying to update in lj more, because otherwise the journal is pointless and I might as well just delete my journal.

things are too crazy...

I don't think that the trip to Iowa is going to happen, which as much as I was nervous about it I was excited about seeing people and just plain getting out of STL.

Finals- bio final was crap I'm already done an automatic 13 points from what I didn't get a chance to finish (two essays and an I.B. type question.)
I think that the French final will include lots of cramming right before the test in order to get a good grade. I hope I did okay on the HOA final otherwise I could be looking at a very low C in his class, I hate that class and it hates me.

Comfortability levels with people equals very fluctuating...like I don't really have anyone anymore who I'm sure is completely comfortable around me and is actually wanting to hang out with me. I feel like i'm not comfortable completely around anyone...there's always something that'll make it weird.

I'm not tired I slept from 3:30-till 7:00 and I woke up thinking it was Friday and tried rushing to take a shower and get dressed because I thought it was in the morning and I had to go to school. I should probably be going to be though, I don't want to be super tired tom.

I've given up on so many things.
I think I've changed, but I don't know if anyone really notices the changes. I feel like everyone has someone they'd rather be hanging out with as opposed to me whenever they are talking to me or hanging out with me. I don't have anyone to really talk to anymore, people say that they're always there for me...but no. Things get in the way and it feels more of an "I'm going to say this to say it" type of thing. These last two days all I've really wanted to do was sleep...I think I just need to get away from everyone, but we just had winter break. WTF.

Oh man I fell asleep around 12:30 and I slept so good....I dreamt and everything and I even woke up good...no grogyness or anything.

I hope all went well for you as well.